Eunice
I get chills just by saying or typing her name. I met her back in '09 when a friend of mine asked if i could give her a ride to his pool, because we were all going in the same direction. We have so many friends in common, and we always heard so much about eachother, but we had not officially met.
When she got in my car, i don't know why, i got very nervous. Maybe it was the fact that she was in the back seat and i could feel her stare penetrating my soul, or maybe, just maybe the fact that she was so pretty it was hard to not stare at her.
We then right there had our first kiss.
Since she was 16 and i was 19, i told her i was not looking foward to being in a relationship with anyone. we became friends, but obviously we liked eachother ever since that kiss. We constantly called/text eachother and would go out every now and then, we would flirt and kiss but never took it seriously.
I was having my own issues with my ex boyfriend, therefor i was heartbroken and rebelious. But, no matter how crazy things got, she stuck to my side. I decided to try things again with my ex boyfriend and she supported me all the way through it. But, things got violent and i had to walk away again. She worried about me like no one has ever worried about me ever in my life. Then it all became clear; she was inlove with me.
I felt bad for her because i did not feel the same way and she knew that. After dedicating me 9 full months of emotional support and trying to win my heart, she decided it was time to walk away.
I was surprised when i realized that i actually missed her, but i was still not ready for a relationship so i let her disappear. It was for the best. I was hurting her and she needed to get away from me.
She had become very close to my parents, so a month or so later she invited them to a fun event at her work as an anniversary gift, and i guess she was just trying to "be nice", so she invited me too...LOL.
It was great to finally see her. I then realized, i was too busy grieving over all the horrible things my ex boyfriend had done to me, that i kept pushing away all of those who really cared for me.
It took me a year to realized she was worth it. So after a few more months of actually getting to know each other [relationship wise], we decided it was time to make it official. At first it kinda didn't work out, you see, i was severely depressed and she wanted to enlist in the army, but thanks to her patience and dedication, we pulled through.
She helped me through therapy and medication. And after she swore in as an Active Soldier, we started talking about a possible future together.
Our relationship blossomed. I never thought i would open up again like i have with her. I started to trust again and day by day i could say i was actually falling in love again. We understood eachother so well, because she was above all, my bestfriend.
What now scared me most, was the fact that she was leaving the country and never coming back. As an active soldier she would get stationed lord knows where! I was now scared of losing her.
The day finally came and it was time to say goodbye.
June 13th, 2010 she flew out to Fort Jackson, South Carolina for 10 weeks of intense Basic Combat Training.
And those were the best/worst 10 weeks of my life. Writing letters back and forth made us realize we loved eachother so much that we were determined to fight against anything, just to be together.
She went off to AIT for 16 more weeks, and we took turns traveling to see eachother. LDRs [Long distance relationships] are very complicated. It can either bring you closer to your partner or tear you appart.
In our case, it made ours stronger, no matter what happened we stood patient and always talked things over until we made things right. But being in a LDR is not easy at all.
December 14th, 2011:
She finally graduated from AIT, and it was now time to come home. She had told me she would be home on the 18th, but for my suprise this is what happened:
I had her home for 3 weeks. And even though i wish she could have stayed longer, she couldn't. Unfortunately, she got stationed on the other side of the world, so i am now trying to find a way to get an extended visa so i can stay a whole year with her somewhere in Korea. It's been difficult, between getting the money for my plane ticket and trying to pay off all my debts so i can move, but she has been there 100% and i know that together, we can do it, same way we have done every other obstacle course that has crossed our paths.
-Stephanie.
March 30th, 2012:
I Couldn't believe the day had come. It was finally time to get on that plane and cross the world for my baby. We had been arguing a lot, the distance was killing us, but i knew that as soon as she saw my face, everything would be much better!
25 hours later i set foot on Korean soil. I was home. I felt like i could finally breathe. All the tears, all the restless nights. It was all worth it. In the end all i wanted was to see her smile and make her happy.
I will never forget that feeling. Looking straight into your eyes and knowing that nothing could tear us apart was my main focus.
I left my Dad in Puerto Rico recovering from cancer removal surgery but he knew i was in good hands and i knew he'd be happy as long as i was.
My question is: if everything was so perfect,where did i fail to deliver my feelings to her?
Our arguments got more and more intense. She was aggressive, and i could tell she was hiding something. She was out of control. And since jealous women do better investigations than the FBI, i started searching for answers.
I found out she had been cheating in Korea the whole time before i got there.
My heart shattered. A month after proposing... A month after promising a life time with me.
Needless to say, i packed all my stuff and left immediately. Many things happened in Korea that i can not share, i only wish i could erase this dark secret and memories of what happened that day.
She marked me forever. She showed me that even the most innocent have a dark side. And from that day on i chose to believe that happiness is not about happily ever after, it's about being happy today.
You will never know what life will hit you with tomorrow, so do not waste your time building happiness for the future, enjoy that feeling today as if tomorrow was the last day of it...
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